So I don't really like change. Most of you who know me, know this. In fact most of you who know me know that that statement is an understatement. That when change happens, no matter how much I am prepared for it, I become very stressed, very anxious and very agitated. I do it now like second nature. Unless I make the change happen or cause it on purpose in some way, I freak out. It's all part of my mild OCD. Those of you who know me know about that understatement as well. However, it has become my goal to NOT be opposed to change. Slowly things have come to mind that have made me realize that to fully rely on God, to be in His hands on purpose with a commitment to Him in mind, I should be open to change. Especially change that is not initiated by me.
I also realize it is time to start focusing more on what God has been trying to tell me instead of my own selfish desires.
I know this my be one of my shortest posts and probably one of my most vague. Strangely I am not really ready to delve into all that God is revealing to me. It is a very tender place for me. One that I want to be willing to jump head first into, but one that I am very much uncomfortable in treading. I feel like for the first time I am actually going to places I am not sure of and therefore, really don't know what to say except that God has amazing plans.
I want to be bold. I want to love God and people like crazy. I want to want all of Him even when I don't feel like doing it. I want to be seen as weird and not right and not of this world. I can't have it all in my viewpoint, but I can have all I need in His hands. God keep me focused on that.
prayer requests:
a friend who is hurting
Real Life Church
our growing youth
my school, the teachers, and the students
a friend who is troubled
YEAH!!! my mom got the job! my family needs prayer for their new life style adjustment.
3 comments:
I was checking out an old blog of mine and saw your comment of encouragement. Thanks! "Rend your heart" is part of my favorite biblical passage. Is there a song somewhere about it? I'd love to hear it! I read a bit of your blog here, and I love your authenticity. I have started a new blog about pursuing a healthy lifestyle in Christ that you might enjoy. www.leahclairehealth.blogspot.com
Oh my goodness! Thank you so much for telling me about that song! I looked it up to listen and was BLOWN AWAY! Jimmy Needham sounds a lot like Shane Barnard...one of my faves...makes sense, though, because they both went to Texas A&M and were both signed with InPop at some point. Wowee. Thanks again--it's a beautiful worship song!
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