Money makes the world go round. Right? As I come upon a transition in my life I have lots of decisions to make. They pretty much all should revolve around money. With a job to search for I should look for retirement plans, health benefits, salary, incentives, bonuses, compensation, location... so I can search for a place to live which includes rent, power, heat, other utilities, internet, cable... so I can enjoy entertainment and food including groceries, movies, odds and ends from the great god of WalMart... the list goes on. Money makes the world go round. Right? Then why am I pulled another way? Don't get me wrong. I have a bag full of makeup products alone whose retail value is enough to silence me at this very sentence. The amount of DVDs and CDs that I own is ridiculous. I grew up never wanting and so I treat myself as always deserving. This does not make me a bad person. This does not make me a hypocrite. This does make it hard to understand why I feel that not having everything, including money, is not the end of the world if it means I can gain in other ways. Our goal in life is not to succeed or work towards retirement. It scares me to think that I want more than money drawn out every month for social security or a 401. I'm not even sure if that is the correct name of the plan. But it really excites me to think that somewhere it's possible. God has designated a spot for me to serve that fits my desires and His plan. My heart aches to be near my family and watch my little sister, brother and niece and nephew grow. Yet my arms ache to hug a child that has never known a hug. My ears are ready to listen to a child speak who is not used to having adults stop to pay attention. My mouth wants so badly to say I love you, I care for you, I am here for you to children who assume their life is loveless, careless and void of help or assistance. I want to be with my loved ones, but here is the thing: I know they are loved. I want to get a high paying job, but here is the thing: there is a higher chance that people are there that care already. I want to be safe and secure in my plans for the rest of my life but here's the thing: God's plans are higher. His dreams for me are more than I can possibly imagine. And because I believe that it is HIS love that makes the world go round, I choose His path and not mine or societies. Hold me accountable God to what I know is true.
Prayer Thoughts:
Trish, Gwyn and Nate
Andrew Rawls and his family
Emily and Brian Nordby and their new addition, Ethan!!!!
my sister Katie and her boyfriend BJ
me, as I take the PRAXIS tomorrow
the Sudan
children who will go unloved tonight
children who will go unclothed tonight
children who will go unfed tonight
children who will be used tonight
children who will cry themselves to sleep tonight
children who will go cold tonight
children who will go unnoticed tonight
