So.... it's been a while. Almost a year. Tons of reasons why I haven't blogged and none of them important. Life has definitely gone in a different way than I thought or planned. Life, I'm beginning to realize, does that.
I live in Fayetteville now and teach at a middle school. I would still like to go to Africa. I haven't given up on that entirely. But I am realizing that God has different plans for me for right now. After several different interviews I got this job. Have you ever not wanted to do something but knew that you should? Or feel like you were fighting something that you knew would win? And not win because it was stronger, but win because it was right. That is me moving to Fayetteville. I've lived in three different places and visited more than twice that. Never have I felt such a feeling of discontent. Even the short spurts of Philly took some of my heart. Never did I picture myself in the flattest or hottest place on Earth. I know you think I am exaggerating, and I am. But I can't help it. Basically, never did I ever want to live in Fayetteville.
I've been here since August and there have definitely been ups and downs. It seems that there have been more downs than ups, but in reality it's been the opposite. See, although I am confident that Fayetteville is not my destination ( NOT EVEN CLOSE), I am sure that Fayetteville is a short (VERY SHORT) stop that God is using for me to not only show others how awesome a relationship with Him is, but to stretch and grow me closer to Him than I could ever imagine. What other place could I possibly be where I would have to FULLY DEPEND on God for sanity let alone everything else? Ok, that was a little sarcastic.
Truth is, I have really hit a low in my Fayetteville life. Which is why I appreciate my relationship with God. Which is why I can tell Satan to shove it and to shove off because I serve a MOST HIGH GOD. Which is why I say that I know that, even though I loathe this place (if Lot and his wife were leaving Fayetteville they could have grown old together (lightening...NOW)), I know this is where I am supposed to be. I don't know WHY. And that is okay with me. Because my God knows way more than me. And I can be comforted with just that. So Satan can attack but in the end, he can't win. Which means I won't be in his domain for long. :)
